am i a hazard to myself ???

No 27, lrg BDK 1/11, Bandar Damansara Kuantan 26100 Kuantan Pahang…..dats my address for da new houze..huhuhu..rindu sgt pade rumah lame kat taman serukun tu..byk kenangan tu…da houze dats watching me grew up year after year…now, everything in da diffrent view…paling sedih my mum x bagi bring my cats pindah skali..they give them to da nieghbours..wuuaaaa!!!! nangis tiap2 mlm rindu kat my cats.. yg bwk just "kuku" my dad’s beloved tortise..

so far life kat sini okey, cume jauh skit la dari bandar..dlm 15 minit..jiran sbelah2 pun x pindah lg..peace..depan umh ade tmn permainan, ptg2 tgk budak2 main kat situ.. pepagi bley joging..ni dah masuk minggu ke3 bln 6 ni..rase cam lambat jer mase berlalu..boring sbenarnye, nak jln2, x tahu nak jln ke mane..tmbh pulak kengkawan kat kuantan ni memasing dah keje..sume bz jer..huhuhuhu..xpelah at least cuti sem ni ade gak dapat kawan baru..

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Bittersweet Home

I guess I’m a dreamer
my heart is of gold
I had to run away high
So I wouldn’t come home low
Just when things went right
Didn’t mean they were always wrong
Just take this song and you’ll never feel
Left all alone

Take me to your heart
Feel me in your bones
Just one more night
And I’m comin’ off this
Long & winding road

I’m on my way
I’m on my way
Home sweet home

I guess that I’ve seem
To Make romantic dreams
Up in lights, fallin’ off
The silver screen

My heart’s like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometimes nothing-keeps me together
At the seams

I’m on my way
I’m on my way
Home sweet home
I’m on my way
I’m on my way
Home

It’s a bittersweet symphony, this life
Just trying to make ends meet
You’re a slave to the money then you die

Theres no change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I’m here in my mind
I am here in my mind
And I’m a million different people
from one day to the next
I can’t change my mind
No, no, no, no, no

I’m on my way
I’m on my way
Home sweet home
I’m on my way
I’m on my way
Home sweet home
I’m on my way
I’m on my way
Home..

(By Limp Bizkit)

Huhuhuhu..dah lame x update blog ni, today is my last day here in this company, Might Meteor Advanced Manufacturing (MMAM) sdn bhd…actually ni la tarikh yg aku ngan wawa tunggu2 dari 1st day kitorang jejakkan kaki kat company ni..skarg mcm rase cepat la pulak mase tu berlalu, kalo x  hari2 rase lembap jer menghitung hari…tapi alhamdulillah la kitorang dpt practikl kat sini…staff2 kat sini mmg best, terase jugak la aku ngan wawa dihargai kat company ni, walaupun hakikatnyer kitorang ni byk gak curik tulang, chating n surf internet…wakakakakaka..siap dpt offer extend practikal lg sebulan tu…huhuhuhu..paper pun kitorang xkan lupe jase2 staff2 kat opis ni..lepas ni  hopefully dpt join all da event yg company buat…
Jumaat ni aku ngan wawa akan kosongkan rumah sewa yg byk berbakti pade kami sepanjang kitorang praktikal kat sini..my dad will come n take my things kat umh tu..hmm, miss my mum very much! x sabar nyer nak jumpe my mum, nak bg present n wish heppy mother’s day…I LOVE U, MAMA…! mmmuah!

JUST FOR MY MOM

Sometimes I feel my heart so lonely but it’s ok
No matter how my girl just left me and I don’t care
Whenever the rain comes down and it’s seems there’s none to hold me
She’s there for me, she’s my mom

Just for my mom, I write this song
Just for my mom, I sing this song
Just for my mom, can wipe my tears
Just for my mom, can only hear

Trap in a subway, can’t remember the day but I feel ok
Damped in damn situation, in every condition with no conclusion
Whenever the rain comes downand it’s seems there’s none to hold me
She’s there for me, she’s my mom

You may say I have none to cover me under the sun
She’s there for me, she’s my mom…

(By Shiela On 7)

Last week mmg ari2 paling busy 4 da company..program INSEP will be held dlm bulan ni so kene rushing gile nak siapkan ape yg patut..tambah pulak dgn exibition kat midvalley ni..ape2 pun, aku ngan wawa enjoy ngan keje yg kitorng buat..walaupun kekadang rase cam tension gak tapi berbaloi la dgn ape yg kitorang dapat..exibition dlm 2 hari tu mmg grand gile, tapi aku dtg sehari jer sbb nak balik kuantan…huhuhuhu…sian wawa kene dtg ari sabtu tu…tapi  xpe kan wa, duit masyuk..huhuhu..

Operator, The Line Is Dead

Need you, I want you
You know that I found you
Don’t leave me and say that
you want to find your way back
Believe me, I followed all you said
Operator, the line is dead

But now I find you different
You broke up all the walls in my head
Please don’t go, let me

I guess I never wanted this
Another ‘ever after’ kiss
Operator, the line is dead
Oh no, it’s only me and all the walls inside my head

And for the record, I was lost
With only one road I could not cross
And that’s the road that takes me here
Oh no, not again
This is where it started

I need you, I’m for you
You threw me, I caught you
Don’t leave me and say that you want
to find a way back
Believe me, I followed all you said
Operator, the line is dead

How come you never look away?
Everybody bought but I paid
You’re not the one who left me here
Oh no, that was me and all the things I wanted

(By Jason LO)

Sumtimes we dont ever planned situation n condition in life, but suddenly on da spot, situation n condition happen, n it became very meaningfull…last week i spend my weekend at melake, really miss melaka very much.. terase mcm tourist pun ade…huhuhu…kebetulan time kitorang dtg micet mlm tu ade teater competion,sronok gak dpt layan teater diorg tu..En megat jadi one of da judges pd mlm tu…huhuhu..anyway thanks to D coz bg kami tempat penginapan yg sungguh selese, 5 star hotel pun kalah… x lupe jg pd satria JGE yg byk berjase…also thanks 2 photograper2 yg x bertauliah yg sudi amikkan gambar kami kat sane…especially mamat baju merah yg tgh layan perasaan kat pantai puteri..miss u so much la…bile la dpt jumpe balik…huhuhuhu…

Dealova

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu…
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu….
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu…
ooohh..karena hati tlah letih….

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh…
aku ingin kau tau bahwaku selalu memujamu….
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati…
oh bayangmu seakan akan….

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu..ooohh
seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada….
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hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang…
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang……….
dan sepi……

(By Once)

Last Friday , I took half day off n balik kg… I really miss my mama, abah, my siblings :- ana, amin, duan, najmi, n my lovely cats :- endek, boyot, kudut n putih… my abglong x dpt balik sbb dier ade event kat kem kluang…
even its a really short weekend, only 2 nites n 2 days at home, we 1 family really enjoy da time together…im glad dat my dad had accepted me n my apologized, luv u abah… n I cant stop myself eating my mum’s cooked…(huhu naik lg la berat aku…) hanging around da mall with my younger sis, ana… bowling… pizza.. watching Garasi… shopping… n also not forget, karaoke dlm karaoke box… (lepas gian melalak) huhuhuhu…I was really enjoy dat time, but then I got to went back to KL on 1.30 pm Sunday… all da happines turn to sedey, sakit ati, nak nangis, bosan, malas, benci, marah, geram, menyampah n so on… :’(    8.05 pm sampai Shah Alam…

HILANG

Dimanakah cinta sejati
Yang memberi ketenangan hati….
Sampai kapanku harus menanti,
Kau pergi dan mungkin tak kan kembali..

Dan aku menangis dan aku terluka..
Bila..
Dan aku menangis dan aku terluka….
Bilaa…
Engkau menghilang…

Kau pergi dari ku tinggal kan ku
Lewati malam tanpa kasihmu
Ku rangkai kata
Ku rangkai nada
Yang ku ingin hanyalah cinta
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..

Semua karena cinta ku menangis
Semua karena cinta ku tertawa
Semua karena cinta…
Semua karena cinta…

(By GARASI)

Last week i’ve change my hair colour…huhuhu…boring dah ngan kaler lame, tukar kaler baru… jgn terkejut kalo jumpe aku ngan rambut merah…!!! wahahahaha…ni bukan iklan citer hantu korea, ni kaler rambut aku yg baru….check it out….!

Redline’95

and when people step out this redline ,
i will never let them to go ,
never laugh cos this is the dead end ,
it is my end for its start to go ,

and when people step out this redline ,
means no other place need to go ,
let the future past in the mean time ,
and the great night kill all alone ,

it was u .. call me and told me ,
help me up and shine up my life ,
it was u .. call me again till lonely aaaa ,
it was u .. call me and told me ,
blur my eyes and tell me to do ,
is was u told me the lies i always spoke ,

and when people step out this redline ,
i will never let them to go ,
never laugh cos this is the dead end ,
it is my end for its start to go ,

and when people step out this redline ,
means no other place need to go ,
let the future past in the mean time ,
and the great night kill all alone ,

it was u .. call me and told me ,
help me up and shine up my life ,
it was u .. call me again till lonely aaaaa ,
it was u .. call me and told me ,
help me up and shine up my life ,
is was u told me the lies i always spoke ,

it was u .. call me and told me ,
help me up and shine up my life ,
it was u .. call me again till lonely aaaaa ,
it was u .. call me and told me ,
blur my eyes and tell me to do ,
it was u .. told me the lies i always do …

(BY  SHIZUKA)

Exibition at PWTC mmg grand gile, tapi yg x grand nye time tu plak i got a fever..huhuhu…xlarat pn terpakse pegi…lame gak x sihat, dlm 4 ari baru sembuh…at dat time aku bermlm 2 hari kat setiawangsa, umah aida n 1 nite kat gombak umah ucu,adeq nani…dlm pd demam sempat lg ke KLCC, saje jenjalan sambil tu dapat kawan baru, anayana namenye…

TEMAN TAPI MESRA

(By RATU)

huhuhu…smalam ari valentine…but i’m not celebrating valentine…i’m releasing myself with playing bowling…..sronok gak, actually sume org x plan pun, last2 minit nak balik keje baru dpt information nak pi main bowling kat summit…walaupun i’m not best at bowling, yang penting baling jerk…!!! longkang pun longkang arh…!!! huhuhu…

KETIDAKWARASAN PADAKU

ketidakwarasan padaku
membuat bayangmu slalu ada
menentramkan malamku
mendamaikan tidurku

ketidakwarsan padaku
membuat hidupku lebih tenang
aku takkan sadari
bahwa kau tak lagi di sini

aku mulai nyaman
berbicara pada dinding kamar
aku takkan tenang
saat sehatku datang

ketidakwarasan padaku
slimut tebal hati rapuhku
berkah atau kutukan
namamu yang ku sebut

aku mulai nyaman
berbicara pada dinding kamar
aku takkan tenang
saat sehatku datang

suara hati takkan mati
jika jiwa terus menari dan bermimpi…

(By SHEILA ON 7)

Its about 2 month i dont speak to my father, i know i’m such a bad daughter but i really cant stand to heard such a crap dat he said to me, maybe im too ego, maybe im too emotional..we’re always argue about anything, perhaps we’ll never understand each other anymore…
silent doesn’t mean that i agreed, if that were so, then I would say, why bother? but there are things I know I’ll never see, I’m sure his heart knows what I don’t yet know.. He want only that I grow up acording to him, but i know what right is, and what don’t…I have to learn to wield my inner light, n if I follow him, well, then I won’t…i’m sorry i hav to betray…

To Abah:
I’m really2 sorry for the anger in the air,
Though we fight, my love is always there…

Confessions Of A Broken Heart

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter

and I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better

And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders

Family in crisis that only grows older

Why’d you have to go

Why’d you have to go

Why’d you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am broken but I am hopin’

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am crying, a part of me’s dying and

and These are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes, your polar sweater

I dream of another you

The one who would never (never)

Leave me alone to pick up the pieces

Daddy to hold me, that’s what I needed

So why’d you have to go

Why’d you have to go

Why’d you have to go!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don’t know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth, did you ever love me

Cause these are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart, of a broken heart

I love you,

I love you

I love you

I….!!!!!

I loved you!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don’t know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth…

Did you ever love me!!!?

Did you ever love me?

These are…..

The confessions…of a broken heart

And I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

(By Lindsay Lohan)

is it a rules?

Humans..,they will never be satisfied…
sejak 2 3 ari ni, i keep thinking of some of my frens…semester 5 lepas banyak sgt kisah suke duke bersame kengkawan…maybe sbb skarang semua pun dah pi tmpat practical..so mcm sedey je teringatkan semue org…

tapi ade 1 topik yg really attracted me 2 think about.."frens dat make fren becoz of something"..mungkin some people were so ignorant of da rules of life, but now i realized dat some people also sets some rules 4 make frens..dari dulu untill now,people i’ve met effected my life very much,i’ve experienced happy n downfalls of being a frens 4 a lot of people,tapi…is it really help to create who i am and who am i become…?

kenape ade jenis org yg carik kwn atas sbb2 tertentu tu yer? is it nesessary 2 sets rules to make frens? based on what of those people make frens? what r they aspect 4 a frens actually? no 1 know wat people thinks rite? kite ni manusia biase..xde yg sempurna semuanye..kenape perlu kite nak bezekan kengkawan yg ade..? jgn salahkan org lain kalo diri sendiri yg berkawan atas dasar tertentu…dis life is not just us alive..so please,think bout others too..

weird huh?..,sumtimes people come in2 your life n u know right away dat they were meant 2 be there…some 2 serve some sort of purpose..2 teach u a lesson..atau mungkin 2 help u figure out who u are or who you want to become…u never know who these people may be..kemungkinan your roommate ke, neighbor ke, long lost friend ke, kekasih ke,ex-kekasih ke..or even a complete stranger 2 u..but when u lock eyes with them,u’ll know at that in very moment they will affect your life in some profound way…

pade kengkawan yg aku syg sgt2..slamat berpractical la masing2,jgn malas2 time practikal nanti..kite akan tetap terus berjuang hingge grad..chayukkk..!

pade kengkawan yg semester 4 n adik2ku..belajar rerajin,jgn malas2 pi kelas pagi,jgn slalu sgt overnite n jgn lupe kite jumpe lg lepas practical k..

lastly,billion thanks 4 all da wonderful,colorful,cheerful,madness n sadness along of being my friends…those were special ingredients u’ve brought 2 my life…!

TEMAN YANG KU KASIH

Engkaulah temanku tempatku mengadu
Tika tawa pilu tetap bersamaku
Teman yang ku kasih akan ku hargai
Hingga akhir nanti kan kekal abadi

Kupinta oh tuhan akan berpanjangan
sebuah persahabatan penuh keikhlasan

(By Azharina, LAila Isabella OST)